dissatisfaction from lack of interest; sorrow ([info]ennuidolor) wrote,
@ 2009-04-08 20:51:00
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Another Bi-Polar Mess
I never knew one of the symptoms of bi-polar disorder was increased irritability.

I just took a quiz through the uni's online self-help center.

They say if you answered yes to more than one of the questions, you should probably seek follow-up treatment for a better diagnosis.

I answered yes to 19/20 on bi-polar.

I guess it really just explains a lot.

I'm not shocked. I've studied the disorder a bit...
and yet I can't help but wonder how I could have not self-diagnosed it.

I guess back then, it hadn't hit me hard yet.
I hadn't yet lost my best friend to my mood swings.

And now that I have, I can't help but wonder if it's too late.

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[info]sightlessunless
2009-04-09 04:08 am UTC (link)
It's never too late, Kyle. I'm really glad that you're at least thinking about getting some kind of treatment. Even if you're not sure about medication, just talking to a professional can be very helpful.

I thought that I had mentioned bi-polar before... I know that I've mentioned that you sometimes remind me of a good friend of mine who has it. I remember when you were having what was probably a manic episode and I mentioned him and you said you wanted to talk to him. He's doing really well, actually. He's been doing pretty well for about a year. He was just in DC for a study so I got to spend a good amount of time with him and he's been *gasp* happy! And productive! It's a far cry from where he was a year ago, certainly. I really thought around this time last year that he had just gone completely off the deep end and he might never be the same, but it's amazing what people can come back from. I know he thought he lost a lot of friends at the time, but it wasn't because of him - it was his disease. Most of them, the ones who are worth a damn, are still his friends.

It was incredibly difficult to deal with him when he was so manic - it scared me to the point that I looked up his mom and e-mailed her to make sure she knew the extent of things. I hope you know that just because people might not be strong enough to be there for you when you're at your worst, it doesn't mean they don't care. It's hard to see someone you care about go through that, and while ideally we could always be there for people when they really, really need it, sometimes our own life has to be the priority.

I wish you the best with all of this. I know it's difficult to take that first step, but it can have a very positive effect. As always, if there is anything I can do to help, let me know.

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