Instead of doing his homework,
and planning out next semester's course schedule,

he had bigger plans -with cooking.

He learned recently that mayonnaise added to the top half of a sandwich is ideal -
due to the texture, aftertaste, and moistness while being consumed in the mouth.

This suited him just fine, as he had always eaten his sandwiches this way growing up.

So he dropped the hit of acid he had spent the afternoon procuring at his university,

and left reality waiting -
while the madness began to swell within his mind.

Today, of all days...
I woke up
at 11:30,
half an hour after work started without me,
and my guitar was calling to me.

I played well,
I didn't make mistakes all too often,
and the Kyle said it shall be good.

I came up with at least 3 new songs.
I wrote one of them down.

O.o

I even told myself how to play it on the piece of paper.

It has repeats
and swells
and lots and lots and craptons of delay.

Christ, I adore it like a child.
I will probably never adore anything in that way, because I don't really plan on having children
but I loved it.


I've been waiting for so long for something to come along

slap me in the face and say

"HEY, THIS IS WHAT YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO DO NUMBNUTS!"

But it never happened.


And when I dream about playing guitar or bass in a band-
that's all it is -
a pipe dream -
a lavish success story sold on television infomercials -
 but it never really existed.

That's all any form of success has been to me -
a fucking dream.


Well, I woke up from that dream today and did something.
Made some progress.
I was delighted with myself.

I guess that's really all I wanted to say.

"He turned away and saw
something he was not looking for
both a beginning and an end.
But now he lives inside
someone he does not recognize
when he catches his reflection
on accident"

stolen from laimparfait

LJ Interests meme results

1. boredom's burden:
   Of course this is a TOOL quote. But it is one of my interests because the topic seems very ... me-ish. My one great mathematical breakthrough was an equation that looked something like this: Any situation > (Any situation + me). Note the addition of me, 'cause multiplying me into that is just silly. But yea, boredom's burden = me. More times than not.
2. discontentment:
   It's not so much an interest as a time consumer. But this is life. The thought of being content to simply exist seems contradictory to higher thought forms. We must have a purpose or else... what's it all for?
3. frog brigade:
   Ahhh Les Claypool did indeed make it on here.
   Frog Brigade is due up for another album, or else I will be saddened.
   As sad as I am about all the other Les Claypool projects that may never see a follow up album. Oysterhead, C2B3, Holy Mackerel.
4. indifference:
   Let's face it. Live or die, happy or sad, driving or sitting in the passenger seat, eating or starving to suffer ... I could go on but I'll spare you. I don't know that deep down inside I really care.
5. love:
   What can I say? It fascinates me. I used to stare when I saw it around me. I used to think I knew what it was. Now I don't know. I don't know if it's something that's pragmatic to believe in, and that fact alone makes it a virtue we should strive for; or if I'm pulling my own leg, right out of the socket. It's easy to say you're in love. It's easy to say you were in love. Then why does it end? Why do we end, when God "loves" us?
6. no lies:
   A bright eyes reference - No Lies, Just Love
   Brilliant song. Despite the "happy" ending, still one of the most depressing songs I've ever heard.
   I can't relate to the lyrics at all, but the emotion behind them makes me break down and stop for a second every time.
7. rage against the machine:
   MMhmm. 4 words. Zach De La Rocha. What ever happened to him?
   Where are my political messages to blindly follow?
   I'm still boycotting taco bell's tomatoes and I don't even know if they stopped their cultivating processes. Not that I would care, I hate tomatoes anyway.
8. seeing past the surface:
   I try to do this as much as possible. Like seeing the time & effort spent constructing that brick wall outside your house. Like thinking about everytime anyone has ever slipped and died in a shower. Like wondering how many other people can't sleep... when it's clearly time to sleep.
9. sunrise:
   I used to think waking up and seeing the sunrise was one of life's greater pleasures. I don't see them anymore. Once again, I don't think I care. I'll leave such worldly pleasures to those that still love the world they're waking up to. I'm tired. Let me sleep in.
10. working:
    As weird as it may be, considering I don't have a conventional job of any sort. Part-time, full-time, any-time. Well, I do have the last. But... when I used to work full-time in construction I enjoyed the recognition that came with working hard. It's a lot better than the recognition I get now for going to school but not knowing what I want to do.
    
    

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Oh yes cause you've got such a heavy workload around here.
MMm.. how you uhh.. how you coming on that novel you're working on?
Eh? Got a big uhh .. big stack of papers there? Got a .. got a .. got a nice little.. nice little story you're working on there? Maybe a big uh novel? You've been working on for three years? Eh? Got a.. got a compelling protagonist? Eh? Got a.. got a obstacle for him to overcome? Eh? Little story brewing there? Working on.. Working on that for quite some time eh? Yea, talking about that three years ago. Yea? Been working on that the whole time? Nice little uhh narrative: beginning, middle and end? Some friends become enemies, some enemies become friends? Yea? At the end your uh main character is uh richer for the experience? Yea? Yea? Yea? You got a.. no, no, you deserve some time off.



Oh I know it hurts now Brian, but look at the bright side, you have some new material for that novel you've been writing. You know... the novel you've been working on? You know the one you've been working on for three years? You know, the... the novel? Got something new to write about now. You know? Maybe uh, maybe your main character gets into a relationship? Suffers a little heartbreak? Something like uh what... what you've been... you've just been through? Draw from real life experience? Little uh little heartbreak? You know? Work it into the story? Make those characters a little more three dimensional? LIttle uh richer experience for the reader? Make those second hundred pages really keep the reader guessing what's going to happen? Some twists and turns? Little epilogue? Everybody learns the hero's journey isn't always a happy one? Oh I look forward to reading it.